Monday, August 17, 2009

An open letter to myself (Shout out to Melissa)

Dearest J Squared,

Ever since going off your antidepressants you have been freaking out in numerous ways. You had extreme anxiety with simple tasks such as calling to make doctor appointments or to get your tires rotated. Luckily, it turned out similarily like your fear of talking into the box at drive thrus when you were in high school. You told yourself how ridiculous it was and eventually just did it. Now you seem to be freaking out about not being cool enough, not being as far in life as some 27 year olds are, not being pretty enough, etc etc etc. Lets bring in ole Stuart Smally cos you're good enough, you're smart enough, and gosh darn it, people like you! Scratch that, people effing love you! So please stop comparing yourself to other women. You are not like other women. Frankly, you are more badass than most women. You are compassionate, thoughtful, beautiful, you are intelligent, you have accomplished great things thus far, you are witty, silly, you enjoy life and know how to have fun. Yes, your anxiety holds you back, but you know you can fight through these ridiculous things and be a better person. You don't need your boyfriend's friends to tell him you are beautiful because he thinks you are beautiful and you should know that it's true. You don't need anyone's approval but your own. You don't have to be so scared of living. This doesn't happen all the time, but on the rare occasion you are in fact scared to death of being an adult and you know what, that's okay. You need to find confidence in yourself and know you can do anything that you put your mind to. Just like Melissa said, there is always room for improvement, but know that the base you have to work with is incredible!



**Thanks Melissa for writing a letter to yourself because I needed this***


  1. love it. and i love you! and we are ALL scared as hell of being adults every once in a while!

  2. jess, this is awesome. and i think EVERY woman compares herself to other women sometimes (i know i do it waaaay more than i should). and you are all of the great virtues you mentioned. and more, too. :)


  3. Thanks guys! I love you both, dearly! When I am down on myself, I need to remember that everyone is at one time or another. It's hard not to be. Jamie makes me feel like I really am sexy and smart and witty and you know what gals, I am starting to believe it ;-)